It's my birthday today and I'm now *drumroll* twenty years old! It does feel different than all my other birthdays as I do feel quite much older than I did yesterday. I have changed a lot over the years since my first april day but most of the changes has been made over the last months and it has been overwhelming to say the least. I'm not finished changing yet, and I guess I never will, but now that I have a clearer image of myself I think it will be easier to finally be comfortable with who I am and the goals I want to reach.
I have so much to be thankful for in my now twenty year long life: My family, the few friends that care and my passions for music, movies and books and my love for writing. I do not know who I would be or what I would do without them all and it is easier to ignore the not so good when I remember this.
This day will be used eating chocolate cupcakes and tomorrow I will celebrate with dinner and cakes and family.
Oh, and aren't the H&M Festival collection wonderful? Reminds me of Woodstock and the love that is the 70'ies.
Spring is finally here and although my usual pessimistic mood is unyielding I can't help but feel a little more optimistic with the aspect of spring looming around the corner. It feels amazing to be able to go outside without having to turn into a snow man. The feeling of the sun on the skin, green patches visible underneat the lingering snow, is all reasons enough to go outside and just enjoy everything that was deprived by winter.
I try, as often as I can, to appreciate this. When winter comes I always miss summer but when the spring arrives I have a tendency to take it for granted and spring and summer is much too short, at least were I live.
Therefor, each and every morning, I wake up much too early and have a nice breakfast by the window. No books, no computer, no anything. I have found that having a nice start to the day has a tendency to keep a general good feeling throughout the day - very worth having to wake up an hour early!